Is my fault!

Today, in acadec we found out where our teams stand in order from first place to last place. The current team captains are Nazir (silver in first place), Melissa (Black in second place), Rocio (purple in third place), and Victor (yep that is me, white last place). It was not anything new to me I was expecting to be in last place because lets just say I have not been doing my best lately on test, I am currently number 12 out of 19 people currently in class and after talking to Mr. Locke I found out that it was my fault my team was in last place. Well after his reasoning unfortunately, it turns out his right. It is true it is my fault I am in 12 place while my two veterans draft picks are number 8 and 9, it gets worst, my section leader is number 14 I think, yea it is not going so well, but I know in order to help my teammates first I have to help myself. There is sunshine after the storm I found out that I got top gun award for the social studies test, I was very proud of myself of course, I was reminded of why I am a team captain and that I have the capability to improve over time and possibly bring my team to a respectable position. I need to be the leader that Mr. Locke and my team expects me to be even though everyone else expects me to fail. I do not blame them I mean this year is my first year as a team captain and there is no reason why people should expect anything else. Well I know what I am capable of, last year was my first year to go to regionals and I was short of 5,000 by like ten point or something now I have to built upon that and do my best to learn that to be a leader you need to make other people around you better and right now I am not doing that so I am not being a very good leader. I must not dwell on the past I need to keep my mind set on the future and keep working in the present so that my future can be the past I want to be remembered by!